say it

trust is a hard word to say.
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even harder to believe nowadays.
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tip of the edge

wow. they just keep increasing dont they.
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when will it ever be satisfied?
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when will i ever be ok with life?
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hmmm..
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never.
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another hard years work down the drain.
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time to get back to work.
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vegemite rocks!

i'm addicted to vegemite for some disgusting reason.. it just tastes good..

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and newest newest addiction... tim tams.. yum..

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turk the robot turtle is broken. thanks to rafie.. hmph. not forgiven! all my hardwork...

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by the way..

HAppy BirThDay Su Ann!!!

Thanks for being one of the bestest friends ever..

wish we were in the same class again.

i dont have anyone else to annoy as much as i annoy you!

ekekee..

Make this birthday a good one k!

God bless!

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home at last

ok. i can't believe i'm saying this but i'm soooo glad to be home.. oh gosh.. malaysian food never tasted any better.. seriously, the moment we arrived back we headed for Bak Kut Teh and along with that came CHILLI PADI... oh my best friend.... haha.. this followed by durians and prawn mee and chicken wings and roti tisu at night.. if that wasn't bad enough, i then had claypot yee mee the next day, lala, soup, and lots of sambal belacan for dinner... oh and dry curry chicken mee for lunch this morning and sambal prawns and fried fish for dinner... honestly.. can it get anymore asian? but damn i love food.. ehehe..
and i eat ok! stop saying i dont! hmph!
okay so where was i.. hmm.. Australia.. damn it was fun.. Well i've been staying with foster families in both Brisbane and Sydney and i'm glad to say i've found more ppl to love.. i mean.. who would just simply host two noisy, food eating, large water consuming teenagers like laura and michelle in their homes? it's just illogical. lol. but thanks lorna, david, robert and jeanne.. you'll forever be in my prayers :)
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so if we thought 10 000 people singing and dancing and walking around the streets of brisbane was bad enough.. the 300 000 people crowding the streets of sydney was definitely a shocker. but boy was it fun.. people from all around the world were there.. i met people from canada, italy, brazil, phillipines, indonesia, vietnam, almost half the states of US, columbia, papua new guinea, romania, argentina, korea, japan, mexico, portugal, and the list goes on and on..
but i can gladly conclude that italy has the hottest guys.. haba haba.. *ekekeke*
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anyways, with this World Youth Day 2008, i not only grew closer with my friends whom i've known for 3 years and never really got to know well... i'm glad to say that i feel more spiritually in touch with God.. and journeying with 300 000 other people is definitely a lifetime experience.
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oh and did i mention i got to sit on the A380 Air Bus.. damn it was so cool!!! and spacious.. and i'm glad to say the food was good.. surprisingly.. though the stupid air stewardess was not as nice as she was suppose to be... damn my milk came bad! Ewww! and sitting next to marc and kevin on the plane was fun... though it would've been better if Marc didn't spread to me his damn flu and cough which took me two weeks in Aussie to get rid off!!!! geeesss!! you owe me..... lol
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on a random note.. room 005 is off limits to all singles and loners. lol.
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and M, stop blaming me for your shopping ok!! you went way overboard then i did!! and if i didn't convert for you.. you could've blown your fathers bill off limits!! lol..
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and i am not gonna touch fast food, microwaved food, sausages or instant soup at least for a month.. okay make it three weeks.. urgh!! we were so deprived that we even went to chinatown to eat and the first stall we ate at was "Malaysian Delicacies"... haha.. what a joke.. and the owners werent even malaysians.. lol.. that's a laugh.. some of the food tasted like shit but still... it was damn good at that moment.. lol.. and rice noodles came as kuey teow.. geess.. they should do some research before actually selling the food.
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lastly... sleeping outdoors under the stars with 300 000 people in Randwick stadium.. damn that was fun.. we were in the tents freezing out butt off.. with a little "medicine" to keep us warm.. cough cough.. haha.. did i mention it was winter?? so laugh all you want.. but this was my sleeping gear... two socks, 1 normal and 1 wool, thermal clothing, t-shirt, a ski-ing wool jacket, another thermal blanket, a 5 degrees sleeping bag, and another 20 degrees sleeping bag on top.. damn i was comfy.. hahaha.. even woke up sweating in the 4 degrees atmosphere..
did i mention randomly waking up in the middle of the night to a singapore fried bee hoon which tasted like shit to everyone but somehow tasted nice to me. ekeke. *thanks Edwin*
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oh well.. life's like that.. and i'm loving it. so far..
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but the sucky part is being back in uni and trying like hell not to feel so lost.. damn it. i feel so stupid. bleh!
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wish me luck!
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i'll post pics another day.
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love love to all!
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being back in your arms is definitely the best part ;)
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next chapter

that was a great week in brisbane.. we stayed with foster families and mine was just wonderful. imagine a house in the middle of the forest with orange trees around and trees and animals! Apparently there are kangaroos around but it's winter so they dont come out often. my foster parents were soooooo super nice. They also had an 18 year old son and another Japanese exchange student staying with them. lastly, the FOOD... oh the food.. i've never eaten so much in my life and i swear i'm growing fatter here. And thanks to my brilliant idea to go shopping... my bag is now too damn full and i have to carry everything on the 17 km walk! God help us all.
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oh gosh it's so freaking cold in sydney. we just arrived here and its so cold. i think the temperature is a single digit. We were told thast just a few days ago.. the temperature in the morning was negative 2 degrees. How am i going to handle this i mean HELLO...... i sleep with my air con at 25 degrees!!!! anyways, we just found out that we wil be staying at foster homes again. So sad cause i was looking forward to staying together with everyone else. Aihs. well we'll see how it goes.
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last note of the day : i'm getting fatter :( my face is round. literally.
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last last note of the day : i miss you love. so much. i hope everything is going fine at home. i look to the sky and i picture your face smiling. i look to the ground and it's your face laughing. i close my eyes and i feel your hugs and kisses. i sleep at night and it's you i dream of. i miss you so and i jsut want to let you know... you're always on my mind. :)
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ARRIVED!

omg! i'm in australia and it's freaking cold here.. the weather is freezing but the atmosphere is so so nice... we're at a college or something now and i feel soooooo comfortable here.. it's just green grass.. wide compounds... and i can just lie on the grass..
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the best part is you can see ppl from all around the world here.. from
england.. canada.. italy..
... everywhere!! what a sight for sore eyes.. hehehe.
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well.. the flight was horrible though.. i mean... turbulence.. bumpiness.. and long hours.. just not my thing... i had to sit next to marc and kevin.. and marc stole my seat.. so i was crammed up in the middle...
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anyways.. this was our rude awakening...

"omg... we're taking a plane together.."
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"omg... first we started by walking to the mamak together... then we all took our license together... then we took buses to other states together... now we're on a plane together!! to another country!!!"
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"yeah!!!"
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"how did our parents even trust us??"
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hahahhaaha...
friends last a long time.. that's all i can say...
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so anyways... our first sight of the town came with a huge huge sign board that said....
"want longer lasting SEX???"
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and this was the biggest fact that we can tell ourselves we are no longer in Malaysia... lol
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so now we're just chilling at the college after a lovely HEALTHY lunch.. and just waiting to be taken to our foster family homes.. oh well... wish us luck.. i can't wait =)
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May God be with us..
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muaks!!! miss ya baby.. so so much.. thinking of ya every moment.. =P

help

i'm sick.
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so sick.
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australia is in 3 days.
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God help me.
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i'm not here for Mega Sale =(

as my blog title for today says...
I'M NOT FREAKING HERE FOR MEGA SALE!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH
oh the heartbreak... i mean i mean.. come on!! shopping? sale??? laura?? it's suppose to go together!! murder me... so i had to make the best of my time before i went off... Hence the shopping begun... today.. ekekee.. and tomoro and the day after and the day after.. until monday.. i must! i must!
*tears*
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i finally got out of bed today at 12:30 pm.. i'm just a little lazy.. just a little.. eheh... Ms.michelle woke me up with a plan to go swimming and tanning.. and i was like...

WHAT>!??!?

tanning??

after sungkai and redang.. you gotta be kidding me.. lol..to think i wasn't dark enough.. she wanted to go tanning!!!!! haha.. anyways.. i would've gone for a swim but i couldn't cause mummy dearest was going on and on about helping her shop for my daddy's stuff and my things to bring on the trip.. so off to ou we went.. AGAIN..
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anyways.. shopping was fine.. but OMG... you have no idea how many ppl i met in ou today!! i mean it was like every two steps or every turn i make i meet someone!! gees.. i met a total of five different school friends.. all at different times.. one friend's gf... one ex bf (God help me)... one tuition friend... and my two best church mates were there as well.. just that i didn't see them... but seriously.. Malaysia this is a sign.. this is the time.. the place.. the start!
it's time for a new shopping mall baybeh!! and it better be good!! ggggrrrrr....
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but it was fun seeing everyone.. all that i have missed.. you guys all look great! especially my old school friends.. really miss you all.. sniff sniff.. so anyways.. throughout the whole day.. my tummy was acting up again..

think i've got food poisoning AGAIN...
this can't be happening.. not when there's so much more to eat...
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so i had to skip practice at night.. i mean.. i HAD toooo... lol..
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thanks for taking care of me. and making me happy..
even though you gave me the biggest heart attack ever and i swear i was going to kill you at that time..
muaks. me loves. :)

thursday

11:15 am : RING.. my phone rings..
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"morning baby... thought you said you were meeting your friends at ou?"

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"yeah i am... but only at 12..."
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"babes.. it's 11:15...."
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"WHAT?!??!!??!?!?!??!?!! oh shit!!!!"
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and what a lovely start to a lovely morning...
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so off we went to ou to catch a movie with my long lost monash-ian friends which i totally missed over the 7 days we did not see each other.. hahaha.. and we do what we do best.. watch a movie!

hmm.. let me see... this movie has it's ups and downs... firstly.. it's WILL SMITH for crying out loud! i mean.. who wouldn't wanna see his hunky face with his God forsaken HOtness of a Body in a movie... now.. throw on a tight leather suit and some flashy sunglasses? what more do we need?? hahaha...
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anyways... back to the movie.. well.. its pretty stupid yet pretty funny.. in my own personal taste.. i kinda liked it! =P thought the twists in the movie were good.. and thought it was interesting.. but mr.Ddasissy didn't think so.. but then again.. he curses every single movie ever made but the Godfather.. which i wouldn't say it's bad.. but there's too much killing man.. gees.. have some humanity.. Go watch Barney damn it... lol
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so overall.. i'd say i liked the movie.. you can go watch it now! shoooh shooh shooh! :)

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Today is friday and i've got three more days to prepare before Australia.. and i'm soooo freaking behind time.. help me.. seriously.. i havent gotten shoes.. socks... havent packed...
OMG I HAVENT PACKED!!!!!!!!! great... another addition to my stresssss... ( What stresS? lol )
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so it's another day of shopping and helping my mom.. Help me.. and i'm still in my duckey pjs now.. eheeeheee.. well it's only 1 in the afternoon... besides.. i just woke up.. and apparently have a lot to say.. aiks.. can't go swimming M!!

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toodles.. :)

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you'd think i'd forget

dont think i'd easily forget you when i'm gone.

=)

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when after all this while...

i still can miss you after you drop me home..

i still can think of you when i'm watching tv..

i still can message you when i'm eating my favourite dish..

and i still can watch you as you sleep.

and still think you're cuter than my teddy.

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i love you
i know it
i'll miss you
i'm certain of it
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a lifetime is not enough.
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you're the only one that makes me feel right

when i'm absolutely wrong

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you're the only one that can make me cry in your arms.

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no one can hold these feelings back.
it's written right across my face =)

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day by day
my departure goes nearer,
day by day
my absence seems clearer.
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i dread the day when we'll be apart again,
what will happen this time,
i'm sorry i won't take the pain.
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these past few days has been a blur
my mind full of ignorance,
my conscience full of doubt,
my thoughts full of nonsense,
i havent been sincere.
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i'm sorry for making things
harder than they are,
i'm sorry for always wanting things
different than they are.
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sometimes i just forget to stop
forget to appreciate,
forget to remember,
forget to have faith.
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but this time it's different
i know i can feel it
this time history wont repeat itself
this time we'll win it
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just give me hope,
give my a sign,
give me a reason,
give me a line..
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help me to be sure,
help me to be calm,
help me be certain,
this time.. when i'm back..
i'll be happy in your arms...
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i have to be

I bid to say goodbye

Au Revoir

( i hope that's how you spell it)

Nigel Fatty Fernandez

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you may have been

annoying, irritating, silly,

bubbly, asshole-y, disturbing,

frustrating,

donkey-fying...

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but to me.. you are a friend..
=)
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i stand firm when i say waffles aint gonna be the same without you

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and the newest addition..

pancakes...

(dont remind me)

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there's not farewell without some cake!
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thanks for always listening..

(i can't believe you remembered the breakfast thing!)

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the old bunch..
gosh.. four years seems like a lifetime
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yet... we're still the same..

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*candid*

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can you spot Ms. baboon ( ML ) in the pic?
there she is!!
hahaha

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what a memory

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we're all grown up..

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blue tights and green tights.
(never again....)
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and you'll forever be in our memories...
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always..

=)

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tuesday

one week from now i'll be leaving for AUSSIE!! weeeee..
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so yesterday was a damn tiring day.. got up in the morning.. and went shopping in mid valley with my mom and Alison and her mom... walk walk walk.. i forgot how huge mid valley was! i havent been there in like what... two years?? gees man.. time flies...
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had to go find my backpack.. water bag.. socks.. scarf... shoes... and i ended up with nothing but two items from ZARA.. weee... :) heeheee..
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was suppose to meet up with the rest of them at central later on.. but oh well.. got a little lazy...
at night it was practice in church and we had to do some JOGET stuff.. which was quite funny and embarassing at the same time..
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"you can't put three kings in one kingdom"

that's all i can say bout last night...

lol

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