no really... it's like sometimes we do things without even thinking about the effects or the consequences or the purposes.. i mean.. really.. i understand that certain situations dont exactly need thought.. like like.. blogging random things or washing your hands after a visit to the loo ( i hope yo do) or like a habit of shaking your leg.. well i'm going way off point.. the point is.. i feel like everything i do seems to turn out messed up or just plain screwed up..
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you know at first i thought God was playing jokes on me.. i used to pull the Martin and say "harhar God... Very Funny....".....
but now it's kinda like..
"har....har....har... Har??? God...please tell me you're kidding..." .
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ok.. enough blabbing.. like all explanations... we need examples... so here i go.. i suggest u take a deep breath if you're planning on reading this out loud.. if you're too busy and couldnt bother less... just scroll to the bottom..right...so.. like i was saying...
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- What's the point in running your ass of the threadmill..
when u eat tons of carbs and junk after.. - What's the point in trying so hard to study for an upcoming test
when i can't get anything into my head.. - what's the point in wishing sharing
when no one shares back? - what's the point in caring
when the same person u care for hurts u back.. - what's the point in moving on and learning
when u make the same mistakes again.. - what's the point in laughing
when the next moment you're crying.. - what's the point in lying
when the truth always comes out.. - what's the point in u believing in me
when i dont believe in myself? - what's the point in trying so hard
when they dont notice it? - what's the point in asking nicely
when all u get is a rude answer.. - what's the point in trying to be nice
when u get mean in return.. - what's the point in trying to be nice,
when u hurt the person in the end.. - what's the point in trying to be nice
and get hurt in the end? - what's the point in talking to strangers
when strangers mess up your life.. - whats the point in advicing
when you dont take your own advice.. - what's the point in dreaming
when your dreams are crushed.. - whats the point of feeling
when feelings bring u down.. - what's the point of opening up
when you're always being shut down.. - what's the point in giving an opinion
when no one wants to listen.. - again.. what's the point in exercising
when eating makes u fat.. - what's the point in gossiping
when half the time it's about urself.. - what's the point in blogging
when u know that only you yourself can understand it.. - what's the point in living
when we're gonna leave this place anyway...
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well i think the point... the point that we are looking for is a response... a reaction... it's no point loving someone if you dont get something in return.. it's no point eating if we dont love the taste or physically need the energy to function... i mean... everything we do or say has a consequence.. Newton's third law states that "every action has a reaction"... so maybe it could also be the thrill of finding out what the reaction would be, that we constantly put ourselves into positions like these.... maybe our subconscious mind is thriving on curiousity towards the difference of outcomes in every situation of our daily lives that we so often put ourselves into matters that we cannot handle... just to have a little excitement... or add a little spice to our boring lives... are we doing it unintentionally?? maybe???.... well if someone can find a way for me to intentionally STOP doing all this.. then maybe that'll solve all my issues...
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Grey says that i can no longer say
"i didn't know bettter" because i do... i am accountable for everything i say or do....
and she's so right..
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so someone...
please tell me
why do i keep repeating my mistakes??
i need shackles.
or a slap in the face.
wait.
i'll just do it myself.
what a useless blog post.
*piak*
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