no really... it's like sometimes we do things without even thinking about the effects or the consequences or the purposes.. i mean.. really.. i understand that certain situations dont exactly need thought.. like like.. blogging random things or washing your hands after a visit to the loo ( i hope yo do) or like a habit of shaking your leg.. well i'm going way off point.. the point is.. i feel like everything i do seems to turn out messed up or just plain screwed up..
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you know at first i thought God was playing jokes on me.. i used to pull the Martin and say "harhar God... Very Funny....".....
but now it's kinda like..
"har....har....har... Har??? God...please tell me you're kidding..." .
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ok.. enough blabbing.. like all explanations... we need examples... so here i go.. i suggest u take a deep breath if you're planning on reading this out loud.. if you're too busy and couldnt bother less... just scroll to the bottom..right...so.. like i was saying...
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- What's the point in running your ass of the threadmill..
when u eat tons of carbs and junk after.. - What's the point in trying so hard to study for an upcoming test
when i can't get anything into my head.. - what's the point in wishing sharing
when no one shares back? - what's the point in caring
when the same person u care for hurts u back.. - what's the point in moving on and learning
when u make the same mistakes again.. - what's the point in laughing
when the next moment you're crying.. - what's the point in lying
when the truth always comes out.. - what's the point in u believing in me
when i dont believe in myself? - what's the point in trying so hard
when they dont notice it? - what's the point in asking nicely
when all u get is a rude answer.. - what's the point in trying to be nice
when u get mean in return.. - what's the point in trying to be nice,
when u hurt the person in the end.. - what's the point in trying to be nice
and get hurt in the end? - what's the point in talking to strangers
when strangers mess up your life.. - whats the point in advicing
when you dont take your own advice.. - what's the point in dreaming
when your dreams are crushed.. - whats the point of feeling
when feelings bring u down.. - what's the point of opening up
when you're always being shut down.. - what's the point in giving an opinion
when no one wants to listen.. - again.. what's the point in exercising
when eating makes u fat.. - what's the point in gossiping
when half the time it's about urself.. - what's the point in blogging
when u know that only you yourself can understand it.. - what's the point in living
when we're gonna leave this place anyway...
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well i think the point... the point that we are looking for is a response... a reaction... it's no point loving someone if you dont get something in return.. it's no point eating if we dont love the taste or physically need the energy to function... i mean... everything we do or say has a consequence.. Newton's third law states that "every action has a reaction"... so maybe it could also be the thrill of finding out what the reaction would be, that we constantly put ourselves into positions like these.... maybe our subconscious mind is thriving on curiousity towards the difference of outcomes in every situation of our daily lives that we so often put ourselves into matters that we cannot handle... just to have a little excitement... or add a little spice to our boring lives... are we doing it unintentionally?? maybe???.... well if someone can find a way for me to intentionally STOP doing all this.. then maybe that'll solve all my issues...
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Grey says that i can no longer say
"i didn't know bettter" because i do... i am accountable for everything i say or do....
and she's so right..
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so someone...
please tell me
why do i keep repeating my mistakes??
i need shackles.
or a slap in the face.
wait.
i'll just do it myself.
what a useless blog post.
*piak*
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6 comments:
hey for some reason I'm having a bad tummy ache 3.00 am in the morning and i can't sleep because my wonderful dog is barking like a mad fool! so I'm reading your entry I'd like to share with you my thoughts hope you dn't mind haha dude you think your the only one that feels that "everything i do seems to turn out messed up or just plain screwed up.." well i can say same here man, i think i'm screwed up even more, letting a lot of ppl down i mean i still remember the look on my moms face when i told her that i took drugs and that i smoke, and it haunts me till now because i thought that i'll never hurt her but well i'm only human man and we make mistakes all the time, SAM was a mistake for me and in away i regret what i did but heck i'll be stupid enough if i never learned from it, at least i have enough intelligence and sensibility to realize that.... think about it man whats the point of living life if your life is going to be perfect all the time, whats the point of doing what you do if you are going to be getting everything you want in life, you know i was once like that whats the point of me doing engineering if i wanna do music well now i can't wait to start engineering i'm actually excited about it seriously man i attended a talk by the assistant dean of melbourne uni eng. fac. damn man my eyes have been open did you know that ashton kutcher is an engineer, shit! now i believe once i finish my engineering i'll be one more step closer in realizing my dreams, and actually now i really don;t mind being an engineer like i really want it cause i have so many ideas to help society, thats all i've been wanting to do ever since young, to help ppl haha you know what i always say i'm God's personal joke he made me tall and bestowed upon me "tiny ball" which could be found under the "bush" but yeah God has a great sense of humor and think about it man everything happens for a reason and for me i wouldn't be the person i am today if the events in 2007 didn't take place, hey sorry if i came across being egotistical about you not smsing me man i'm not some kind of fascist dictator lol i know you are busy the work load for engineering is tremendous i know it is but its just sometimes i feel small la =) sorry i'm a sensitive dude =) haha so yeah there is no point in being to critical about life man thats how it is, all we can do is keep the faith man and keep walking tall no matter what challenges life throws at you hehe
yo sorry ar but this blog comment thing can only take so much characters i have to post this in sequence
we do the things we do cause we want to know whats going to happen next, yeah true we are imperfectly perfect in that sense which makes us unique creatures, then again whats the point in not trying man we don't try we'll never know, yes at time its scary to realize the outcome but we ain't "i don't know what the word is but its those ppl that can tell the future for some reason it is not registering in my head" we can never tell the future we can never know the outcome but who knows, the outcome could be different, i might think that in future i might be some rockstar but who knows i could turn up to be a successful engineer or a priest! =P we never know unless we try, i always tell my mom to do the things she loves doing now cause i'm already 20 and she doesn't need to take care of me anymore i can take care of myself because i want her to stop trying to be a super mom and just smell the roses and enjoy the rest of her life without being worried about me, sometimes i give her some money of my own so she can do what ever she wants, and by living a good life and loving my mom my dad now has started to change a bit we are still not close but at least he is still helping me out financially and i have even encouraged him to do his masters and not worry about me cause i'll find a way to pay for my degree haha now isn't that love man, the greatest gift God gave humanity is love and so yeah it is even said in the bible i wrote a recent blog about it Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves."
-- 1 Corinthians 13:4-7
sometimes we get so carried away with the lovey dovey stuff that we think that that is love well the bible is clear keep the rest in movies lol =P! haha my dad recently heard my recordings and he said is sounds like bob dylan haha it was a good sign for me cause he likes bob dylan wooo hoo! thats why one of the reasons he got me my new dell xps studio is because he is helping me out with my mini studio hehe so laura don't stop doing what you do best man and that is being the laura jane i know of, make mistakes and learn from them, its ok to make a lot of mistakes, cause learning from them makes you a better person and better equipped in life and dei dei =) you don't need shackles man you need to be free you need your independence, you need to find your own way, you need to appreciate yourself man cause you deserve more than you get! and dude stop calling yourself fat cause you ain't "i like big butts and i cannot lie" =P joking joking! omg it took me an hour to write this and my tummy still hurts i have a terrible back ache shit sound like i'm pregnant tomorrow will be playing guitar for my house dedication wish me luck oh yeah another thing if you and your girlfriends wanna make sushi let me know cause acts church is having this all woman's thingy on the 14th and 15th of august and i know you like sushi, i don;t know how because its disgusting, yuck but yeah if you wanna go let me know only girls allowed =) haha tc la my words ain't great la but hope it helps =P bye fatty!
ps you told me once there is no point in running away from problems so don't... keep fighting man!
Well Laura, Jesus went through the same thing through. He cared for the world but the world killed Him.
Perhaps you've heard of the phrase everything happens for a purpose. God's plan may look like a joke at times to us but in the end if we play it right, we'll have a stronger character. Being hurt back by people whom you care for just happens as much as we hate it. Jesus got it from Judas and the Pharisees.
We can learn a thing or two from there =) and there is a season for everything. Try reading Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 =D
i second that!
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