coffee beats

sigh.
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is losing something you lost before worst.. or losing something you have?
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after all this time. IT STILL doesn't matter. does it?
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i'm confused. Pick one. or two? or all? just stop hurting.
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the day before is always the worst. the day itself is slightly easier. the day after is almost torture. then the following gets better.
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dear God, help me to forgive.
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dear God, help me to forget.
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dear God, help me to move on.
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dear God, help me to be happy for others.
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dear God, help me to mentally tie my hands behind my back so i dont punch someone in the face.
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dear God, help me in my exams.
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dear God, help my friends.
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Aih.. oh dear God......
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